What If

from Summer Days by Michael Timog

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The beginning part is from the movie "We Bought a Zoo".

I wrote this a week before the biggest show I've played yet. I wasn't expecting to get so many people interested in hearing me play so it was a pleasant surprise. It was also a pleasant surprise to find out the girl you thought you were talking to was actually talking to someone else.

I fell into a state of depression and self pity weeks before the show. I wasn't eating, I was acting different, I was getting into arguments with my friends about her. It wasn't a good time for me.

It got to the point that I was ready to cancel the week of the show but I didn't give into that thought.

This song is about that emotional blindside from a relationship that was already going down and the thoughts of a friendship ruined because of it. I say blindside because I was still holding on to the naive, optimistic outlook that it could still work, even against the advice of friends. You get to a point where there's nothing to say to each other and that thought drove me insane; "Was it something I said? Something I did? Something I didn't do? Or is it all in my head? " Turns out I was just in denial about what was really happening.

lyrics

What if I never let go
Would you be here?
What if I told you no; I want to stay here Is it too late to try; to give it one more chance
Too late to say I’ve lied I made a big mistake

These words seem to have no effect
Based on your stoic reaction
Or maybe we’re both just hurt inside
And if that’s the case

What if we never had to compromise
To make this love work between the you and I
What would it take for you to realize I want to be a bigger part of your life
And I know that I can’t state the way I feel
A million songs about I love you just ain’t real
I hope this song will help you to realize
There’s more to me than the songs I write

To see you now after all these years
It makes me think how hard I took your words
I could never recover; from there we just suffered
In front of the wall, we never broke down